Today I feel settled enough to write this, to think about it, to re-read what I'd written without breaking down, yet again, to say that my grandmother, for whom my book was written, passed away, before the book was published. She was my angel, here on earth. Now she watches me from above. This is my letter to her...
What is an Angel?
You are my definition of an Angel
Your wing span is infinite
and although small in stature,
and although small in stature,
Your spirit is boundless.
Your voice echoes softly in my mind,
Your heart caresses my soul,
Your heart caresses my soul,
and your tender touch warms me entirely.
Dear Mother,
From the time I understood what a grandmother was I realized that you were more. I am so blessed to have had you as mine, I will always cherish you. You have blessed me in so many ways having just been a part of my life. You are the quintessence of a Mother, a Grandmother and a Great Grandmother.
Words will never be enough to express the emotions that are swimming around inside of me, I feel as though I'm drowning. I know that you are looking down saying: "Kari...Well I'll be, don't cry baby, I'm alright". But my losing you has caused me not to be. I know that remembering you will help to lessen the pain and some memories will even make me laugh. I will welcome those memories most of all.
I know it is selfish of me, but I can't see not being able to talk to you. To ask you questions about yourself and others, pen in hand, waiting to write it all down. But thanks to our long talks over the phone and in person, I was also given the opportunity to know "Lil' Sugar", the sassy little girl that inspired me to write a book. I can still see the excitement on your face and in your eyes and can still hear your commentary as I read, "Yep, tha's sho' how it was", after reading to you the first draft. I know you will be at the book signing in a beautiful suit and matching hat, sitting front and center beaming with pride, for this story will be your legacy.
I will always love you Mother and I am so grateful that my children had the opportunity to truly know you as I did. They will forever have their own special memories of "Great-Great Mother". We love you immensely and will forever hear your soft words echo in our hearts.
With love,
Your granddaughter,
-Sukari
From the time I understood what a grandmother was I realized that you were more. I am so blessed to have had you as mine, I will always cherish you. You have blessed me in so many ways having just been a part of my life. You are the quintessence of a Mother, a Grandmother and a Great Grandmother.
Words will never be enough to express the emotions that are swimming around inside of me, I feel as though I'm drowning. I know that you are looking down saying: "Kari...Well I'll be, don't cry baby, I'm alright". But my losing you has caused me not to be. I know that remembering you will help to lessen the pain and some memories will even make me laugh. I will welcome those memories most of all.
I know it is selfish of me, but I can't see not being able to talk to you. To ask you questions about yourself and others, pen in hand, waiting to write it all down. But thanks to our long talks over the phone and in person, I was also given the opportunity to know "Lil' Sugar", the sassy little girl that inspired me to write a book. I can still see the excitement on your face and in your eyes and can still hear your commentary as I read, "Yep, tha's sho' how it was", after reading to you the first draft. I know you will be at the book signing in a beautiful suit and matching hat, sitting front and center beaming with pride, for this story will be your legacy.
I will always love you Mother and I am so grateful that my children had the opportunity to truly know you as I did. They will forever have their own special memories of "Great-Great Mother". We love you immensely and will forever hear your soft words echo in our hearts.
With love,
Your granddaughter,
-Sukari
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I love the letter! It is very touching! I had the pleasure to know Mother and she is everything you said. She welcomed me and my kids and showed us love while we were thousands of miles away from our family! Mother is truly missed!
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